I left the woods for as good a reason as I went there. Perhaps, it seemed to me that I had several more lives to live, and could not spare any time for that one.” -Henry David Thoreau Many times I would find myself in a state of mass confusion. It was as if I had no perception of where I would go with my life. I was trapped in a realm of things which were unfamiliar to me. When I tried to experience these new adventures I ended up back where I started in a slow state of death and decay. New ideas and thoughts seemed impossible for me to grasp. It seemed that anything that was new to me was too much of a hassle. How could I move on in a positive manner in this state. All that I wanted to do was the same old thing over and over like a broken record repeating itself over and over until it wore itself out. I finally, wore myself out. I started to feel as if I was the worn out record player and that I would be dropped into the trash when I stopped working the way I was supposed to.
After a short while I found some inspiration from an unknown point. I had realized I would not succeed in this battle called life without serious work.
The only one who could help me was me. I knew that I wasn’t meant to do the exact same thing for the rest of my life. I had to escape this bottomless pit and move on to the next adventure. “I had several more lives to live and could not spare any time for that one.” I moved on to another life. My “new” life was very hard to get used to, but was well worth the trouble. I began trying new things and actually enjoyed it. I realize now that I only have a short time in my life and I have to make a difference here, before I move on to the higher place. I need to speak my views and express my feelings. I need to have fun and work for what I believe in at the same time. Soon I will move on once again to a whole new realm of adventure and a whole new set of standards. These progressions are what are keeping me alive and will follow with me long after I have passed on.